I Have No Voice Left

My mom hightailed it out of here early this morning, since the heavy rainfall yesterday delayed her holiday weekend trip to Yarmouth. Her good friend is celebrating his birthday tonight and I hope they're all having a fabulous time. Knowing them, they are!

So I'm on Grandma duty until Monday night. My gram has always been rather hard of hearing. Even when I was a small kid, she always had the TV volume up way too high. She had something happen to her eardrum when she was young, and it's not something a hearing aid will fix. So ever since Brad and I have been living with her, she's always had to put the TV volume down whenever I've been in the room with her. Doesn't help that I have supersonic hearing.

My mom and I have noticed a swift deterioration in Gram's hearing, even worse than usual in the past few months. Gram has a set of earphones that have helped her hear the TV since last Christmas, but now even that doesn't work. She cranks it up almost to the limit when Mom and I are both out of the house (like if we go get groceries together.) We drove into the driveway Thursday night and when we shut the car off, we could hear the TV inside the closed windows of the car.

Anyway, Mom has taken to putting cotton in her ears in order to prevent herself going stark raving mad, because she can't bring herself to deprive Gram of the last drippy drops of hearing that she has left. But for me, just having survived a really bad spell of migraine pain this past week, there was no way I could tolerate the level Mom has become used to. I put it at the level I could stand - which is still WAY too loud! - and soldiered my way through Day 1. By supper time, Gram mentioned that maybe the earphones weren't working because she hadn't had any sound from them all day.

At that point, I took the earphones off her and told her that the volume had been loud all day. I hated to be the one to break it to her, but I said, "Gram, I think we better just leave it. You're just not hearing it." And when I say 'told' her, I mean I put my mouth right up to her good ear and yelled! And sometimes I have to repeat that.

After supper, I sat in the living room with her and decided I'd try to get her to tell me more family stories if she could remember anything. And I had a photo album that sparked lots of anecdotes. But 4 hours later, now that she's in bed and I've come downstairs to our apartment to chill with my husband and my dog, I'm hoarse as if I've been to a loud, crowded bar all night.

No wonder Mom was zipping out of here this morning with a shiny, beaming smile on her face!

Sleep...

I've been trying to stay one step ahead of a mammoth migraine that has barely stopped for over a month, now. I'm pretty drained, basically on the edge of sanity, but the weather is just not co-operating.

So early this morning I woke up at 4 am from the pain. I got up to take my medication, hoping my dog wouldn't get up with me and think it was time to be awake. I ate some rice crackers to try to salvage my stomach from all the strong painkiller (so far, so good), took my stuff and headed back to bed, peeking over at her blanket. She was looking up at me in alarm. LOL! It was so cute. I told her I took my tylenol (that's what I call my pain meds as far as talking to the dog - she smells my breath when I'm going through a lot of pain and remains restless until she sees me take my meds. So she knows the word 'tylenol' - she settled down once I told her that.)

Fell asleep until 5:30 when my husband woke me up and said, "Your grandma fell down." He could hear the crash through the ceiling (her floor/our ceiling.) I hopped into my clothes and waited at the bottom of the stairs to see if Mom would call down for me. But I heard quiet voices and knew Mom was handling it by herself. Gram has fallen before when she's trying to go to the bathroom in the night. Luckily she's bouncey, rather than break-y. We've got a system worked out that if Mom feels she can get Gram back in bed by herself it's less confusing for Gram. So when Mom didn't call for me, I decided to let Xena out in the yard and get her breakfast because it was already light out and only an hour before she'd normally be up anyway.

Back to bed. Woke up at 7 am when my mom's two weekend guests started talking while they got breakfast. Xena didn't know them and started barking her warning bark. I had to tell her twice that they were Mom's friends and they were ok before she settled down.

Back to sleep. Woke up at 8:30 in more pain. Managed to get back to sleep until 9:30. Dragged myself out of bed, completely unrested. We had a busy day which I'll write about in a later post. Somehow got through it all.

Now all I want is sleep...

Blessed sleep...